Lead to your own broken heart.
Wise up. Love yourself.
Enjoy being you.
Love who you truly are, and
The world will follow.
of clouds and lightningyour lips crashed into mine
with such velocity,
the lasting momentum
could cause thunder to roll on
for an eternity.
your frame cascaded over mine
and enveloped me in fallacy.
the electric air is truly envious
of just how cruel you can be.
the clouds weep.
they, too, are ripped apart,
time and time again. quickly.
always the same, an endless cycle.
it goes on.
sprites and sparks reach down
from the skies, through the clouds,
to caress the earth briefly
and ultimately set it ablaze.
ventingyou are more infectious than the goddamn
human immunodeficiency virus.
you crawl through a person's veins and body
and wrack their minds with manipulation.
you build them up with words of pettily worded adoration,
then slice them apart with a simple "i was lying."
that is all you seem to do. how much of you
is even real, i wonder?
a hundred pounds of fallacy on top of me.
literally. how absolutely crude.
ironic, it seems. you love the crude.
and yet when i attempt to whisper my feelings,
like insects at your tiny morbid feet, they rush by!
noticed, yes, but ignored. you do not even bother
to stomp all over them as they crawl
under your toes, begging for light again.
Melatonin Mondaymorning mist of
melatonin drenched mondays
lies sifting in the wind
i never understood
why they named storms
i'm fine, i'm fine, i'm fine
shock me like an electric volt
i need revival
lather rinse repeat
lather rinse repeat
garbage lining old roads
garbage lining false words
is there a difference?
i taste blood
when i think of you too much
lather rinse repeat
lull me back to sleep
Fictional CharactersFictional characters are who we meet,
as we read the pages of a book.
We fall in love with them,
For their traits, and lives, despite not even knowing how they look.
Chivalrous, courageous, villainous and vile,
We each pick and choose who we like.
For these characters are more than you think,
when a reader invites them into their life.
Time and again, we’re told it’s fake,
That the stories, and tales don’t exists.
That the characters we love who fight monsters and dragons,
vanish when the story ends.
I know it sounds crazy, to say that for me,
A fictional character is real.
That I see him as more, than a page in a book
he’s something that I can touch and feel.
For many who read, create their own worlds,
because reality is just too much to take.
When life gets confusing, stressful or tragic
we feel like we just want to break.
There’s no one to comfort us, not even our friends,
nor family, can understand what’s inside.
Because in actuality, though it
Live Life, Be BraveSo the morning has once again broken
Into shattered pieces of a brand new day
And I’m trying to avoid asking myself
If I’m here and if I’m feeling okay
You see, yesterday I fractured my mind
Now today I am avoiding the cracks
That pave my path towards recovery
But one day I promise I’ll get back
‘You will get back to where exactly?’
With puzzled faces I hear my friends ask
To a point where I feel I am capable
Of completing simple every day tasks
That each one of you will take for granted
But are the fabric of my sanity
That I will weave into a blanket of hope
To shelter my mind from misery
Now the evening has once again arrived
Bright lights ask if I am here or there
So long as I am where I am loved
My reflection and I don’t really care
Because I know I am stronger than this
I am more than the intrusions my mind craves
A 'no entry' sign now greets them at my door
It’s time to just live life and be brave
SeafoamI think that perhaps I will live life alone
And die silent and soft in my vagabond home
Outlive the people who still know my name
And through my departure, leave earth just the same
I'll leave no one behind me to cry in the night
I'll leave no great sorrow or absence of light
But if I end up leaving someone behind
And I sleep, uninvited in thoughts in your mind
I have no great wisdom to banish your sorrow
No special thoughts for a brighter tomorrow
But please, dear friend, if you find yourself able
Don't strap me down to a cold metal table
Don't paint my face or polish my nails
Or set me up in a box and peer in through the rails
Just wrap me in cotton and rock me to sleep
And lower me into the billowing deep
Don't let me rot in a box in a grave
I want to dissolve into seafoam and waves
Stand UpYou let them hold you down, with fear,
Their cruel words are all you hear,
And you wont speak up, from where you lay,
If you don't stand up, here you'll stay.
Were both survivors, you and I,
But you'll never be free if you don't try,
I know its easier to stay this way,
But you only have this one chance to break away.
Stand up, stand your ground,
Use the voice you just found,
This is all a game you'll no longer play,
Because if you let them win then you will pay.
They can't hold you down forever,
Use your brain, you're much too clever,
To let them walk all over you,
You're stronger than that, you know its true.
Because you're stronger than you've seemed,
And smarter than they've gleamed,
You're better than them by far,
Stand up, show them who you are.
maybe at a time
in another place perhaps
"us" might have been
none of this fighting and death
painful as it is to say
is not real, a dream
but you must know this
as you kill my family
fathers and their sons
it pains my heart, to
see them die, but even more
to see you kill them
the man that i love
piercing their bodies, bathing
in their scarlet blood
and now, as I gaze
down at you, down at them, i
cry until i choke
my dear, i wonder
with all your heart, your spirit
do you believe that
it was worthwhile, it
made your soul satisfied, quenched
your thirst for our death
it sickens me deep
to know that i loved you, and
STILL love you deeply
despite all you did
i yearn for tranquility
when we could've been
Too ColdThe day is long,
the wine has gone...
I’ve nothing left to offer.
And outside there,
are trees stripped bare,
I think, with me, they suffer.
The cosy fire
retains your ire,
It does not warm me through.
The ashes shift,
as did the rift,
that widened as rifts do.
I count the hours
and icy showers.
Outside - chill winds do blow
thin and comfortless.
It’s cold enough for snow.
I wait for night,
to ease my plight,
to pile the blankets on.
But no amount
of blankets now
can warm me since you’ve gone.
Convince MeI lie in bed
Hugging my knees
Hoping no one
Can hear my pleas
I scream at them
To leave me alone
But no one stops
To throw a stone
I don’t need a knife
To feel any pain
I have nothing to lose
But everything to gain
I just hope
I’m not too late
To convince myself
It’s not my fate
I feel a hand
And turn to look
But all I find
Is what you took
All of that
I threw away
In hopes that you
Might want to stay
Some call it foolish
All I know
Is what we’ll never be
The One Who Won't BreakWhen tragedy strikes,
There has to be at least one
Person who won't break.
They are the people,
The ones that won't break, who I
Feel most sorry for.
Burn My AshesI wouldn't say I've changed
Simply just rearranged
And in my heart I've moved on
But I gave up on the dawn
If I can help enough to move along
Maybe I’ll find a fitting song
One that shows the joys and the pains
That every day runs through my veins
They gave me meds to help me think
But every day I felt my heart sink
I can’t feel my own desires
Perhaps once more I’ll feel the fires